Tuesday, February 24, 2009

music

Music is a part of existence the song we sing brings forth the feelings that are mind is unconsciously having. Music is one of the powerful factor that affect our emotion basically when we feel alone, broken hearted we intone songs that brings the same emotion and repeatedly meditated it in our mind that goes to our heart and keep it their..
And maybe that’s one of the reasons why we keep on having the same feeling for a certain person and never move on because we in store them just like a song that can be easily memorized and remembered whenever we came in counter with the melody.

Certain times I feel down because I hear music that is made out of a depress heart.
When the writer eventually writes a poem or a song the feeling he or she is having on the time he/she wrote it will be carried on or pass to whatever he/she is writing.

We better know the song we sing because it might cause us more that what we know and what we sing. Music is mainly made buy God for him who is worthy for it because it is one of the way to show him praise, honor and worship.

Every time I feel down I just listen to music that expresses God’s Love and Faithfulness
It makes me feel refresh and happy…

bluer than blue by michael johnson

After you go, I can catch up on my reading
After you go, I'll have a lot more time for sleeping
And when you're gone, looks like things are gonna be a lot easier
Life will be a breeze, you know
I really should be glad
But I'm bluer than blue, sadder than sad
You're the only light this empty room has ever had
Life without you is gonna be
Bluer than blue
After you go, I'll have a lot more room in my closet
After you go, I'll stay out all night long if I feel like it
And when you're gone I can run through the house screaming
And no one will ever hear me
I really should be glad
But I'm bluer than blue, sadder than sad
You're the only light this empty room has ever had
Life without you is gonna be
Bluer than blue
I don't have to miss no TV shows
I can start my whole life over
Change the numbers on my telephone
But the nights will sure be colder
And I'm bluer than blue, sadder than sad
You're the only light this empty room has ever had
Life without you is gonna be
Bluer than blue
Bluer than blue
Bluer than blue

Monday, February 23, 2009

throbbing

My heart is filled with pain; I can’t even smile and sing a melody of happiness
It cause me to cry with no tears falling, wishing I know what brings me to this point of despair and longing all is left is to write and release my thoughts like imparting it with some who will eventually read my writings hope you could relate.

I love watching anime and last month I’m really curious why is it every chapter of the story that I’ve watch begins with the word “throbbing” which can be define as
To beat rapidly or violently, as the heart; pound, to vibrate, pulsate, or sound with a steady pronounced rhythm.. This word seems deep in my head
How will I recount it with me??

To be cont…

Thursday, February 19, 2009

if i won a million

It’s a little bit bizarre that man wants to win lot of money in an easy way which I think doesn’t provide exact contentment that a person would need in life, it is more inspiring that man will earn his money in a legal way and with hard work mmmm.. but in reality if I won big price in lottery I will surely feel good but with no peace of mind because people have this attitude called” jealousness “ that might cost my life and the life of my God given family.

We all know that the lotto price now is about 270 million pesos which is very magnetizing to every person who wishes to have instant money and for those who is in need of it . it just pop up in my mind the question “what will I do if I won that price”???
And my mind suddenly has what I called the migraine of thinking that makes me feel uneasy or uncomfortable the first thing that came in my thought is that how will I get that money without the knowledge of all the people hahahaha…

To be continued….

Monday, February 16, 2009

words are out

It’s been a while when I’ve written something, I actually can’t find the words to say
It seems that I’ve lost my ability to write
All the things that I wish to say goes into hiding
My mouth is shut and locks like a door of painful heartaches
That causes an empty emotion

Beyond a smile
It hides anxious lips
An eye that holds a tear

Still now I’m searching for words
Hope I’ll find it
Just like before

posted this last sept. 4 2008 in my friendster's blog Title: A dream

It was just this afternoon at jollibee in nccc matina when I and my friend have our meryenda. We talk different topics but the one that make us giggle is what our future will be, sometimes we just love dreaming about what will our future looks like and it gives us a since of purpose to continue working hard or in other words mamugas… hehehehe
But while where talking about it a fear caught my heart with a lots of “if” and “buts”
My mind starts to wonder about the things that will soon be; my father is always say that whatever decision you made to day it will be you in the future. As we carry on to our conversation my mind begin its own dialogue mmmm a self talk, but of course I never sounded my thoughts to my friend it would just add to his burden so I keep it to my self wanting to learn from my own being.
As my eyes wonder outside observing the events happening (while talking to my friend hehehe pretending to listen) I simple as my self what will be a Grace Guerrero someday?
I have tons of big dreams that I want to fulfill as a person
I’ve grown up to a life of challenge where everything that I want I should fight for it, motivated by pain and aloof to the society having less confidence and considered to be weak. All my life I want something better, I want to be the best!
Many have seen my life in a splendid blessing but no one ever care to search my reality..
I’ve been trough a lot of predicament with each I learn a big lesson, but I can never make it with out the help of my Father. Numerous of question arises in every situation that I face and a lot of decision should be made that makes me speculate and ask my self did I make the right choice??? Anyway let me share to you some of my dreams
I want to please God
I want to be an international surgeon known world wide hehehe
I want to have my own island paradise
to have my own business in the field of medicine and fashion
I want to be a best selling author of different books
Hehehe maybe that’s for now… you might comment on it as very ambitious but hay! Give me the freedom It’s my blog anyway hehehe
For now I might not know what will my future will be
But I know God has prepared the best future for me, as He promised…
I guess I’m going to leave it that way,
I don’t need to worry about it
I just have to live one day at a time with God
I know things will fall in its place.

something

I can’t describe my thoughts now
It’s like a blurred vision
A gazing spark of blunted reality
Something missing
Beyond the meadows of knowledge
Deep within I’m searching

A glimpse of smile
Is even hard to carry on
My heart is shouting
I’m thirsty

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

a thought

I wish to speak but my mind won’t permit my mouth to unbolt
I want to shout from the top of the world what I’m feeling right now
So everyone will pay attention and give me some consideration
I want to be me; I need to free my true being, my nature
But I’m afraid that no one will accept me as me
Many people say that be true to your self so that you will be acknowledged as what you are
But I guess its just a saying cause never will it be done by anyone because we all know that to be a part of this world you need to pretend so that you will be accepted and its one of the incongruity of life
Life is unfair and no matter what you do it will never be fair
that’s what it is so learn to live with it!
Its just like a win or lost cycle in a game you are never sure what will happen so give your best each time you play don’t let a second pass without giving your all.
If you want a purpose of living; live it God.
I’m not perfect and my life is not ideal
But I’m serving a perfect and a wonderful father my Jesus

continue

Sometimes I’m tired in being writer that expresses no more than my thoughts in wordsI’ve been wondering when will; I shout my soul out in the world who never notice my existence but extracted my being in its last juice and break my heart more than a million piece that would take a thousand light years to heal this all result from a wrong decision that I’ve been making my whole lifeI’ve been in love for several times but Yet I never learn how to let go when its already the time to say Goodbye..People really act stupid when it comes to loveIt’s been the motivation that the world is holding on to continue turningThe motivation that also brings end to its life But still we persist to believe and fight even there’s no choice than to let goWhen will we learn to stop living in the past and start facing the present’s reality and plan the future’s tomorrow….But how will we stop our heart to beat? How will we order our mind to stop believing?It’s like putting an end to life and its beauty No matter how hardHow painful it becomesI will still continue loving youAnd taking care of youUntil the time comes When I need to face the reality that you wish me away That’s the time I will stop believing that life can be beautifulThat every dark night will soon be gone as the sun rises …….

i've posted this last nov.3 last yr heheh

It just about 5 minutes when I get out from my dorm to go to the nearest internet cafĂ©…As I look up the sky I saw a wonderful half moon blooming with white color and a yellow around it in the midst of a bundle of stars wondering in the dark blue sky making it magnificent to gaze at; it’s been a long time since I have this admiration I can‘t hardly remember the time when I used to marvel about the sky. When I was a kid I learn by heart the beauty of God’s creation, everyday I wake up knowing He will keep me safe, with no worries I sleep silently in the night looking forward to a pleasant dream He will grant. I wish I can still go back to the past where I used to sleep at the arms of mother where my whole family prayed together and have fun with each other when the only worry I had is whether I can play outside at noon. I love singing with them special when our small village is having a brownout and the only means of light is a candle, moon and the stars my father would immediately get a guitar and we will start praising Jesus our Savior it warms my heart reminiscing the past memory. It was really easy to live back then compare to now a more complicated world where I live ……I never dream living this kind of life.. I wish to be just like a child when there’s no need to be independent.But I guess I am left with no other choice but to accept this life.Hope God will guide me the same way he guide me when I was a child…I still need someone to take of me,,,,,

first test in our compEd.6 hehehe


yan tapos na 1st na part hehehe 3 and 4 na lang sunod.. aja kaya ko to..
heheheh...

Monday, February 9, 2009

change







Change is the only constant progression that is experience every now and then
It never changes but continues to alter and the past is the only thing that remains the same as the world evolve and maybe that’s the reason why many people keeps on holding on to the past and never go on with the present cause it’s the lone obsession that by no means amend, they are afraid to lose so they never want to try; they keep all the pain and hide it in their closets scared to be free yet long for freedom and happiness.

Every second that counts brings change it’s been part of the law of nature for it to grow it must lose something so that there will be a room for a new life and improvements
Through time I learned that the hardest thing to give up is my past I’m so hesitant and uncertain but when I try slowly I learn the skill of letting go and facing the reality that the life brings it gives new hope by showing the best purpose for every existence but still it holds a lot about what I am now and I’m grateful for it shape me to be better and still on the process to be the best.

facts about me!!

Being asked to delineate your self and the means you are is quite hard to carry out for the reason that others might perceive you differently…and I’m not excellent in introducing myself. I might use words that others possibly will distinguish inappropriate to use for this reason I would request anyone who will read my profile to put up with me while I try to elucidate the way I am.
Let me begin with my name
Grace Delos Angeles Guerrero The meaning of my name would be “the blessing of angel warrior”I’m still 19 yrs of age a college student of University of Mindanao my course is bachelor of science in nursing a 2nd year student. My religion is Protestant a born again Christian and my church is Jesus Is lord Christian fellowship.

it was dawn of january 29 1990 when my mother give birth to me a healthy and cute ..
my parents discribe me as silent and obedient
i grew to know how hard life is and i've become someone whom i never thought i could be
i know reality is far from dreaming but i never lose hope to strive for the best..