a recall

I wonder what is left to say before this year will end. A lot of things happen some are good some are bad but I guess the best part of every experience is learning. As I try to recall 2009 before it will end I try to close my eyes and remember things since January 1 , 2009 here as follows are the events that changed me, moments I cried, laugh, worry and smile.
January 1 , 2009\
o I spend my new year at adriano’s residence with asoy’s family knowing that my father just left for manila a day before and my mother and older sister with her boyfriend celebrate new year together at her dorm and my younger sister precious with my lola at palawan.. I left my dorm to go to the party at exactly 10:30 pm with kuya tonio while worrying that my uncle will be left alone and will have spend the year end with himself.
o I did enjoy the year end celebration but to think what happen to my family is really a deep burden I’m carrying. ( my parents separated and etc.)
January 5 ( I guess)
o We had our all nighters night held at again adriano’s residence with the youth of main and matina . it was fun.


to be cont

bothered

i lot questions fill my mind to day. for the last few days i've been feeling fear all over me without knowing why. even now as i continue writing a feel my heart beat as it hurts so much..
certain times i wonder what will happen next and how will things end up?
i dont want to repeat mistakes i did in the past and i want to make things right.
i feel so alone i really do!! LOrd why?

i need u

I Need You
(written by Antonio Neal and Ayiesha Woods)
(recorded by V3)


Verse 1:
If I opened up my heart
and revealed all that I am,
could You really love me unconditionally?

And if I gave You all my trust,
even though my world's been crushed,
would You really love me,
would You really love me?

I'm so afraid, I'm so unsure,
I don't want to (hurt anymore),
but still I know that...

Chorus:
I need You, I need You,
I need You, I need You.

I can't make it without You,
I need You, I need You.

And if I gave it all away today,
would You promise
not to turn away (from me)?

Verse 2:
As I stand before You now,
just a face in the crowd,
can You really hear me,
do You really see me
(do You really see me)?

I don't know what to do,
but if I give my life to You,
could You ever use me,
please never refuse me.

'Cause I'm so afraid, (I'm so afraid),
I'm so unsure, (I'm so unsure),
I don't want to hurt anymore,
(but still I know) that...

Chorus 2:
I need You, I need You,
I need You, I need You.

I can't make it without You,
I need You, I need You.

I need You, I need You,
I need You, I need You.

I can't make it without You,
I need You, I need You.

And if I gave it all away today,
would You promise
not to turn away?

And if I gave it all away today,
would You promise
not to turn away (from me)?

Vamp:
Jesus, I'm calling You,
You know me through and through,
come take this heart of mine,
Lord, take this pain away.

missed moments

sometimes we take things for granted as if they were just a moment in time never knowing its one of the best moment we have missed

questions in me now..

1. why do he acts like that Lord, why do he look at me when he's holding the hand of the other girl? does he want to talk to me? do he love me? or he's just making me jealous...
2. why cant i have him..

why

How can I keep you? Even all I get is pain for fighting for you? I know you are now in love with someone else but why can’t you let me go? How can you care for me less? When all I do is love you and be there .. cant you see my worth?