hearts month

few days to go February will bid its end and a new month is about to start..
hhmmmm i'm still single and looking hahaha.. nothing seems to notice hahaha but i know the Lord has prepared someone for me.. i just need to wait ...>> waiting is so hard..
anyway i'm praying for someone.. wishing he was mine was painful because he is my friend who knows my imperfection than i guess others do.. he has a girlfriend but still praying haha..

afraid

I’m afraid of losing my way , for I know how hard it was to be at the point where I don’t even know where to go, what to do and how to live, it seems that I’m living life at its verge and no one seems to be there to help me, find my way back where I should be.
It’s more than a point of set back put a total 360 degree turn. On the process I lost my self and my identity and I find my being loosing its breath at the very peak of a beginning.

i meet my heart

I become to facinated with the profession ,I’m taking. Asking why and how things turn that way, for it dictates that all has a reason and a progression for every compensation .
But as I go through the journey, I turned to be more scientific basing each feeling and impulses to my brain. Love has been a decision , an impulse that my hypothalamus is sending .
Until I end up meeting the heart….
Realizing my mind cant live with out..
As I embark on to get to know “heart” I learned to trust, to feel pain and to long for it.
It suggest that I should abase whether I’m right for it can make things different .
I further learn to smile and to say thank you even I’m being hurt and feeling irritated; I learn to accept that not all things has an explination and not all conflicts should be settled by talking but through time that heals..

feb

for the last few days .. haven't blog my day.. its because i'm tired and busy.. but to sum up for its quite well and just living life

january 30 and 31

mourning of january 30, i wake up 4am and start making the output for our CP.
8am we started defending the case, the progression is poor. hay
i was so tired.

january 31

i went with ann to gensan.. all that day we just travel and travel

january 29

January 29..

My birth day, finally eheheh I’m 20 years old. No longer a teen.
For the past years all I know is that I’ve been blessed, loved, cared by my Father.
And I know He will never stop.

My parents greeted me and some of my close friend also did.
Hmmm I have my duty and Thanks God because my group mates who were absent during the first day of duty is now present. But all I know is that it’s a busy day and I feel that they are so unfair in distributing the patients.

And not to mention the confrontation that happen at the end of the duty.

But let’s focus on my birth day eheheh


At 12 midnight ate lucy and ann together with those who see me as important texted me greeting me Happy birth day..but unfortunately I’m already asleep. Hehehe

At 3am I’m already awake and started praying. [to start a day with a prayer is vital]
5:30 I’m on my way to the hospital since it’s our last duty at that ward, I don’t want to be late.

Duty ----- TOXIC hehehe

After our duty .. me,kasan, almel, leah decided to go to the internet to make our CP and later take our dinner at banoks to celebrate my birth day..

It’s a fun night, even were so worried for the our CP. Hehe

a thought

I can’t blame you, for being what you are. It’s like censuring my self.
I just can’t understand your attitude and your characteristics
You’re more than a difficult puzzle or a pathophysiology that I’ve been avoiding to comprehend.