:( mmm

mmm i'm busy learning to let go!! Dont disturbed pls

until i'm fix!

You wouldn’t see me running after you anymore, I end up so stupid doing that when in fact you said it your self, you won’t be able to love me no more. Was it painful? No, because it’s more than death that my heart decided to stop beating. I just wish somehow I will learn to exist now that living is impossible without you.
Hope someone will reach out and hold me close while I’m crying, but I wouldn’t expect you no more to do that, now that you’re smiling for someone else. As I remember those time hearing your voice was the only relief, it was like an imagination, a dream…. A perfect one. I would be willing to give up my heart once again just to have that but reality wont allow me. Cause every time I open my eyes, and my heart looks forward all that it can see was me alone, longing for you.
I’m now trying to be happy, but at some point I still miss you.
But I’m doing my best.. I will keep on smiling until it becomes natural ..
Until my heart stop longing for you… until it learns to love someone else..
I’ll see you soon, when I’m done letting you go. To let you see I’m strong and to make you feel the same way you made me.

hmm love interest

You seem to catch my attention, the way you are makes me smile
Isn’t it weird that I barely know you but my mind won’t stop thinking about you?
Each time I remember your face and the way you react put a smile on my face
Hope I’ll still be seeing you next time..
And hope that time your free!!

i pray

i pray to be happy

i know He has a plan for me

There are things that we cant elucidate which only shows how astounding our creator is, His mind and thought cannot be quantify and His greatness lengthened out like the universe. That makes me realize one thing.. I cannot bound His plan for me that no matter how I imagine it, my mind cannot percieve it the way He does,I don’t have the right to ask Him why and how for each blessing will divulge on its own.
What will I be the following days, how will react in a situation and what kind of problem will I encounter is planned by him in every detail, sometimes all I see is the big picture blinding me to the details of what is being presented that is slowly molding me towards His great plan over my life.
People may see me as a sinner which I know is my biggest weakness; but they never known whats behind my weakness, His big Grace and Love that forgives me and change me bit by bit to my future prominence which I believe to be my biggest strength.

me

Looking my self at the mirror, all I can see is imperfections. My face isn’t that smooth; its actually oily and has a lot of pimples and whiteheads, my hair not straight neither curly but both because it has undergone so much to become perfect but turn out to be worst and dry. My body as a whole mmmm fats all over? No one seems to like the way I am.. Even my attitude needs reconstruction. I dream of having a fairy or a genie to grant my wish.
I want to loose weight, to make my hair long and straight just like the way I see in advertisements of shampoo and conditioners they seem so have the best hair anyone would wish for and the beauty that a man would wish to marry.
Criticizing my self makes me feel worst. I want to be the best. One day .. but it seems impossible
But why am I not losing hope?
All I know many my not accept me.. but I know my Father did. And He has a plan in my life just as he promise.. because he love me.more than anyone did

tnx

I’m glad that I’ve been given another chance to say I love you because all this years that’s what I’ve been wishing.. hope I can turn back time when u where still inlove with me but that’s the irony of time once it pass it will never come back but I wish your not like that…. but your inlove with someone else now ..what can I do? I still love you..pls be mine again