Wednesday, June 16, 2010

tired of searching

How do we value the things we own? Sometimes we forget to hold on things that is important because of its availability but when its gone, when its no longer in your hand; suddenly we realize how much it cost us.. we try to deny first.,Declaring its okay and we don’t need it or it has already dish up its purpose but letting go acompanies bitterness.. and loosing something involves loosing our self.because it suggest that no matter what it is “its still important enough to hurt us”
Searching for love and for companionship well so far I havent have the luck, I tried to get to know a bunch ofpeople in opposite to my sex but so far the search is going no where.. and I’m getting tired enough,mislaid hope.
People are mostly hypocritical, opportunistic , and looking for “ panandaliang-aliw”…( just looking for sex, fun,games) and that adds to my discouragement. That’s why I wanted to stop searching and to try to wait… I know that I would not receive the same emails I used to have.. the same attention I get and all of the compliments I receive from different guys who is trying to have me for fun.. but its okay .. I guess waiting for the right one is much more complimenting than to find someone for short time..it will just break me more and more…
This time I’ll wait for someone who will be willing to accept me no matter how imperfect I am.. and who will try to hold me not because of lust but because he love me..
So those who will contct me.. think twice..because I’m tired of hyprocites
( well this realization comes in my mind just because I lost my phone .. it was stolen from me but true enough that everything happens for a reason and God has a big plan for me.. He wanted me to learn!!!)

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