hmmm...

how many years do i need to live just to forget u and learn not to feel pain whenever i see u?

hmmm hay

mistakes are something to be think about.. when not properly surrender to God.. it will cause you so much.. less confidence, u will still feel hurt ashame and etc..a lot of things keep me from being happy and i pray that i get to overcome this

hmmm

What’s wrong for dreaming for a better life? When you have already a good one; I wonder why I keep on holding on to something that I’ve been longing to let go, emotions are really deceitful, I marvel why my brain allows such stupid emotion to generate my being when it can only cause pain and does myself know that hurting people hurt people? Certainly.
What will be a life after college? Am I ready for the possible change that will unfold? I’m afraid of the things that might come because it’s been my comfort zone being cared for by means of finances.
I dream to become a famous person, well known and etc. I want to learn and earn and be independent in all means but what scares me the most is the thought of being alone, all my life I dream to be love but the more I try to be, the more I fail. My parents are separated; as a kid I’m always least regarded , always left to be the last option , I don’t know how to care and say things right for never did I find someone who we’re able to show me that. I guess I still has a lot of turmoil in my heart for I’m never been that free, its scary and I hope someone will come along to put a smile on me.. one day

Ivana 

:( mmm

mmm i'm busy learning to let go!! Dont disturbed pls

until i'm fix!

You wouldn’t see me running after you anymore, I end up so stupid doing that when in fact you said it your self, you won’t be able to love me no more. Was it painful? No, because it’s more than death that my heart decided to stop beating. I just wish somehow I will learn to exist now that living is impossible without you.
Hope someone will reach out and hold me close while I’m crying, but I wouldn’t expect you no more to do that, now that you’re smiling for someone else. As I remember those time hearing your voice was the only relief, it was like an imagination, a dream…. A perfect one. I would be willing to give up my heart once again just to have that but reality wont allow me. Cause every time I open my eyes, and my heart looks forward all that it can see was me alone, longing for you.
I’m now trying to be happy, but at some point I still miss you.
But I’m doing my best.. I will keep on smiling until it becomes natural ..
Until my heart stop longing for you… until it learns to love someone else..
I’ll see you soon, when I’m done letting you go. To let you see I’m strong and to make you feel the same way you made me.

hmm love interest

You seem to catch my attention, the way you are makes me smile
Isn’t it weird that I barely know you but my mind won’t stop thinking about you?
Each time I remember your face and the way you react put a smile on my face
Hope I’ll still be seeing you next time..
And hope that time your free!!

i pray

i pray to be happy